FUCKTARD NAMED SNG SIEW HONG.
there is a serious fucktard in my school, she sits in a nice cosy office on a XXL chair for her gargantuan bottom. she sits inside a room with 'principal' inscribed on the door outside her office. here is why.
i have an absentism problem. apparently, its as bad as taking cocaine or something because she has termed me a problem kid. me? a problem kid? now the world will really end. and due to my absentism problem she says i must report to school every single day, even when i am sick. she will play doctor and determine whether i am sick or not? i didnt report to school didnt. had diarrhoea, how the fuck was i supposed to walk to school whether nearly every 5mins i have to sit on a toilet bowl. where is my god given right of the benefit of the doubt? the result of having diarrhoea: caning tomorrow. all because i have diarrhoea.
WHAT THE FUCK IS SOCIETY COMING TO?
very soon, we'll have humans operating with cyborg minds. where has the kindness and understanding that we humans had inculcated through years of existence gone to? now, we fuck morals and just play by the rules. everything goes by the book. we are controlled by a book, this is how the most intelligent mammal on earth operates. id rather be living in early century england. where i would fight for my glory and wealth, id rather die than live in a academicically meritocratic country. do human morals mean anything, anymore?
thurs, first week of third term.
life is sweet bliss, when you take learning as your sole purpose in life.
im joking, im not that nerdy yet. though i think its really time i should be. i have just 9 weeks more to the prelims and thats just the appetizer to warm you up for the 'main course'. ive told my mom that i will hand over the wc3 disc to her this monday. end of dota as a distraction. im gonna give it up, for now. as my mom said, ive been fooling around for the past 4 years surely this one year of hardwork is way past its due date. there's so much to be done, even though im only taking 5 subjects at the moment. ive so many plans for after the o's. going to thailand with my buddies, working, earning big bucks and so on and so for. i just find it strange that i have to consistently remind myself that i have to work hard and all. in class, im continuously striving to know every single damn thing i should know. im trying my best, jesus knows.
im really going crazy already. DEMEMTIA. okay, maybe not that bad but i can feel that im losing the real me around you. there's a world i want to show you, my world. its just that you wont take my hand.
im losing you, im losing you. love, the sweetest thing.wanted to run, she made me crawl. woah, the sweetest thing. - u2's the sweetest thing.
school starts tomorrow. school starts tomorrow. school starts tomorrow. FUCK YOU!
ahhh, the day i have been dreading has finally come. you see, its a bittersweet emotion im feeling(GO GET THE SONG BY OASIS!). i really want to get over and done with the damn o levels but at the same time i am afraid to take them on. there's so much fear yet so much desire all mixed into this potent cocktail of confusion. i sit there slowly sipping and sipping and i can see myself flunking my o's. i shall write my term3 and 4's resolutions here!
RESOLUTIONS FOR THE REST OF MY SECONDARY SCHOOL LIFE.-to be really studying. as in REALLY.-to be working my ass off on my books.-maintain my a1 in english, get my maths, sciences, humanities and poa to c6.-complete every assignment before it is due.-remain low profile in school.-just be a god damned nerdy freak.here they are, im hopeful. im ready to start afresh.
Metallica's For Whom The Bell Tolls. (LYRICS.)
Metallica captures the very essence of the bitter ironic confusion soldiers feel out on the battlefield. wanna share this with everybody. its a beautiful song, lyrically and musically. enjoy all! i'll try and get the song on my blog as well.
For Whom The Bell TollsMake his fight on the hill in the early day Constant chill deep inside Shouting gun, on they run through the endless grey On the fight, for they are right, yes, by who's to say? For a hill men would kill, why? They do not know Suffered wounds test there their pride Men of five, still alive through the raging glowGone insane from the pain that they surely know For whom the bell tolls Time marches on For whom the bell tollsTake a look to the sky just before you die It is the last time you will Blackened roar massive roar fills the crumbling sky Shattered goal fills his soul with a ruthless cry Stranger now, are his eyes, to this mystery He hears the silence so loud Crack of dawn, all is gone except the will to be Now the will see what will be, blinded eyes to see For whom the bell tolls Time marches on For whom the bell tolls
just filling empty space la.
drink driving is dangerous. if you drink, please do not drive. - a message from our organiser and main contributor.i can sum up my daily activites the past month in very few words. think about that, a month's activities in a few words.
ALCOHOL, MUSIC, FOOD, BEN & JERRY'S and DOTA, DOTA, DOTA. im such a deadbeat bum. i have got to wake up man, there's no time left! there's so much revision and so much work to be done and most of all. the fuckin' o's are here!
there is no time for homework anymore, just dota!
i swear ben & jerry's and dota keeps me off alcohol. i havent drank since two fridays ago. and that my friends, is an amazing feat. ive just been dota-ing the holidays away and look where i am now! still in front of the computer and with a whole month full of homework to be completed. even if i were to copy every single assignment, i would have a really strong wrist at the end of everything or a broken one. my mom is gonna disconnect the computer and all that till my o's are over. honestly, i feel like im back in the very uncomfortable position i was in while deciding whether i should leave comfortable home for a not so comfortable place far far away near baba's school. anyway, i agreed! for the sake of my future and this important which holds the keys to the gateways of success in the commercial and job killing world of other hopeful o level candidates. honestly, my point of view is that our singaporean education system is a one that is seriously fucked up. we place so much importance on subjects such as maths and science but as fresh graduates from our poly's or jc's. when we enrol for job applications such as a PR rep or perhaps even a lawyer. where does the maths and science come in? my suggestion(which i will never submit to our dear dear MOE in fear of our CID placing telephone bugs and internet bugs and finding out i download music.) is that we should be trained specifically for our desired job type. this way, there is much more experience and knowledge gained over the many years of education that would prepares us to be elite professional in our career line. good, no good?
DotA is dangerous!
if you have poor self-control or perhaps someone who is easilly affected by new interests i would strongly advise you to not play dota. it is a seriously addictive game that will keep you constantly shackled to its attractive game strategies and teamwork plays. most important of all, hours would pass before you and it would all have seemed like a minute. in today's modern gaming society, there are not enough warnings on computer game packages or even LAN shop computer consoles that warn our unsaturated young minds of the dangers of games such as dota or perhaps even counterstrike. if you believe in success through determination, then this game is definitely not for you. your strong willed determination would soon turn into procrastination. here's an example of one such case.
the story begins with a teenage boy named Joel busy clicking away on the mouse,Mom: Jo, you haven't done your homework and there are only 4days left to the reopening of school. Will you do some later?
Joel: Uhhhh, okay.
9hours later, at 12 midnight.Mom: Jo, go and sleep. You have classes tomorrow and you still haven't done your work. Go, go.
Chiding- Joel: Uhhhh, later okay?
2hours later, at 2am.Mom: Go and sleep now!
Paranoid, big ugly spider from hell sceaming away.Computer: HOLY SHIT! DOUBLE KILL!
Joel: Okay, after this game.
About 45 minutes later, Joel goes to bed. He has classes tomorrow at 9am and less than 7hours to sleep. He fails to awake as the alarm clock rings the battery away.
THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS TO ADDICTS, ADDICTS OF ALL SORTS.so now boys and girls you know now of the gruesome horrors and consequences awaiting you if you touch addictive computer games. stay away from them.
Mr And Mrs Smith, movie review?
watched mr & mrs smith yesterday and i must say, i had a testerone charged evening at plaza singapura watching ms angelina jolie. my god, she is absolutely mexican giant chilli peppers hot. yea, her lips are bigger than most extremely beautiful women(eg liv tyler, nicole kidman blahblah) but she oozes a sensuality from her smile that radiates from beyond the screen and into your HEAD(think of smtg vulgar that goes like ***kHEAD) or heart. there is no question, the show was a rather big flop save for the large explosions, knife throwing and bullets flying all around the place. if you're a REAL action fan, this isn't much of a rambo kinda movie. its a lovey dovey action packed show, think david and goliath fighting against one another then turning gay and making out. its kinda like HIM(the band i mean), LOVE METAL. yea, get what i mean? the most memorable scene of the movie for me and probably and many a pubescent male charged with all the testeorone in the world. the scene where mr and mrs smith have a huge gun battle all over their really large and beautiful house then suddenly reach a point where both have an oppotunity to kill the other but they're too much in love to do so.(AWWWW.) yea, then all of a sudden they throw their guns all around the floor and starting making out, grabbing each other the way the ah sohs grab the tshirts at those sales where 5tees for 10bucks kinda thing. ooooh, my point is angelina jolie is damn sexy and its not just her body thats turning me on.
jo's movie review: 3/5 stars.
BOUGHT MY ACOUSTIC!
today was totally rad man! the main contribution coming from my new acoustic! finally bought it, been admiring it from the windows of yamaha for so long. ahhh, this is bliss. ive realised today while waiting for the stupid msian dota servers to finish loading then ive been having this really mad technology craze recently. started off with the motorola v3 razr(the super slim model.) then to the ipod then to digi cams. i just felt that i needed something to distract me, something materialistic. lester told me once before this mad craving is called retail therapy. hmmm, im having a bad bout of it. thank god for guitars, creating music is simply heavenly.
anyway ive gtg. thats maths 'camp' tomorrow at 8. gotta sleep early.
if music be the expression of love, then play on. - LING WEITING.
friendship is rare. I DONT HAVE ANY REAL FRIENDS, AT ALL!
friendship is rare, do you know what im telling you. - tenacious d.
wrote three songs this morning. ahhh, when i get all emo i just keep writing and writing. im gonna write one about friendship later. so so disappointed in a close friend of mine. we were tight man, now he's becoming like a certain idiot's name whom i dare not type out in case the monitor explodes and my face becomes a bloody ragdoll with glass shards sticking out like needles on voodoo dolls.
can you remember our wide smiles?
the painful losses during life's trials.
can you remember the special moments?
every single one with me, cherished & frozen.
can you remember the betrayal?
that we all felt. and the failure.
can you remember helping each other?
whenever i needed you, you were there.
Ben from Crossbred is TIFFANY's bro.
singapore is a small small place. dont you think? really nth much to mention except that maybe im not doing any work im supposed to.
love is a mystery.
love is a mystery, a misunderstood theory to me.what is its formulae? its quantity? what colour must it be to be right?it feels horrid to watch couple walking hand in hand, smiling sweetly at one another and whispering those honey coated sweet nothings to one another. i miss that feeling so much. i miss looking into my girl's eyes and just wondering to myself, 'how in the world did i end up with sucha hot chick?'. ciggarettes drove the girls away, alcohol marked the final BACHELOR FOR LIFE stamp on my forehead. i just want someone who can understand ME, someone i can really relate to. someone i want to influence and show her who i really am. i love love itself and being loved.
GOD HELP US ALL. i'm feeling so emo.
tiffany.SIGH. SIGH. and SIGH again.
there is too much i have to say. too much you should know.too much fear inside me and i deal myself the hardest blow.ive been thinking so much about this particular girl whom i saw recently. she's not drop dead gorgeous pretty like liv tyler but rather sweet and fun. she kinda attracts me the way gillian did, like tomboyish, fun and super cheery. i feel so stupid in front of her, really stupid. (shoot away you ego killers.) she's more english ed, she's sporty, she has a sweet child of mine ringtone(she's a rocker. her bro is too, i heard) AHHHH. but she's the squeaky clean type la, no smoking no drinking. I WANT TO GET TO KNOW HER. god knows i'll sell my CLASSICAL(my second most precious item in my possesion for her) just to get to talk to her once more.
if you read this, which is VERY VERY VERY unlikely. my name's joel and im interested in getting to know you. i will do my utmost to be intersting and funny. i'll do anything to be with you. :)
SO EMO!
today's rock or rather, metal scene.
today's metal music scene has a wolf hiding in sheep's clothing. soon, these bands will soon become the face of metal music and all the hardwork and dedication that has gone into making MUSIC will be destroyed and corrupted within. that's my point of view.
personally, i don't like those metal bands with their lead vocalist doing that screamo voice and another vocalist doing a clean vox job. when i listen to them, there is no telling to what they are saying. aren't they really missing the whole point of what they're supposed to do? it irks me to the bone. im not saying their playing is bad, for eg. God Forbid has one of the most interesting riffs in their track 'Gone Forever'. sounds Metallica'ish and that is a very honourable compliment in my opinion. The Black Dahlia Murder is seriously not bad as well, if they had better vocals. Other bands like Avenged Sevenfold and the Killswitch Engage(im actually leaning more toward the Avenged Sevenfold in this opinion.) however, fail to make the cut on their playing. There are very few Avenged Sevenfold songs that i can say i would term as music. Killswitch Engage is not bad, not bad at all.
in sinapore, there is way too much hype on music like this. there are way too many bands in our local music scene that have 'betrayed' the way metal was made. Just to name a few, Strayvoice , Shadows Embrace, Deathsynth and trust me, there are many many more. Metal bands like Black Sabbath, Metallica, Black Label Society and even maybe 3 Doors Down(which is actually rock pop'ish) keep true to MUSIC. to me, i believe it is an unjustified hype that i hope will fade soon. what happened to good old metal music? will we allow the future of something as personal and as unique to us to be ruined?
i stand for the metal that Metallica played, the metal that made me love this genre more than anything else i could ever have. i stand for the metal that inspired all of us within to form a band and attempt to be great. i stand for the metal that that made us love MUSIC.
bbq at ed's place. and being damn extra.
went to a bbq yesterday at edwin's place. mainly it was some OBS group gathering for 'em and one of their group members remembered me from a sentosa outing and so, there i was. it was kinda fun, played soccer and all did all kinds of stupid shit. turns out all the vb boys still play those weird games. stripping and all that kinda sexually deprived stereotype kinda games. hah. ooops. went back at around 2 and slept all the way till 1 in the afternoon. as a result, i missed tuition and i had actually planned to do SOME work(i have planned to since monday.) but yea, get the idea?
im really screwed. so little time, so much work. i want to excel academically but i don't want to taste the bitter 'medicine'.
i told you i'm not an addict already. hey, get me a beer?
been spending the past few days at home. dota-ing, listening to all the songs i have never listened to, writing loads of poetry, playing the guitar, watching tv and bumming around. ive been listening to alot of Oasis and Jane's Addiction. sad sad emotional songs and im just in the mood for 'em.
cant wait to get my acoustic, gonna look around w bryan, reuben & tinsley this week. hmmm, the witchlist has officially fallen apart, not broken up yet. just fallen apart, we're too afraid to break it up. new name suggestions anybody?
after boys town visit and talk w br emmanuel
we should all sit back and start thinking. how fortunate we are already, how many times a day are we smiling and enjoying ourselves.
most of us are fortunate enough to have a home, to have a computer, to have a handphone, to have a FAMILY and then on to the list of leisure items that we really dont need to have like branded goods, guitars, ciggarettes, even to your PILOT pen. why not redleaf or some cheap pen?
thank god or whoever you think it is who gave you all the wealth you've been endowed with.
Oasis - Stop Crying Your Heart Out.
this song has pulled me through nearly everything.
OASIS LYRICS
Stop Crying Your Heart OutWritten by Noel Gallagher
Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile (may your smile)
Shine on (shine on)
Don't be scared (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm
Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worryYou'll see them some day
Take what you need
And be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Get up (get up)
Come on (come on)
Why're you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone
Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Cos all of the stars are fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
We're all of us stars
We're fading away
Just try not to worry
You'll see us some day
Just take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
decisions are the worst things to face sometimes.
i was struck by su ann's msn nick just now. 'Decisions are the worst things to face sometimes'. how very very true. you know how powerful it feels to be put in a seat of responsibility and have control over the residing people around you. it feels good doesnt it? you get to predict the outcome, you feel good by being in control and exerting your authority. it feels good while things are still running your way. now have you been ever placed in a situation where making any choice just seems wrong? where all your choices lead you down another winding path that leads beyond the foggy mist? if you have or you are feeling that way, you are not alone. i am too.
i dont know whats going to become of my life in the near future, namely the next few months. will i be schooling at a different place, will i have to give up all the pleasures i relish and worship, will i have to spend more time to move on, will i have a life, can i die right now and just see what is it like, can all that heavy weight pressing down and forcing my head under the water just go away. will i ever be the same fun-loving joel heng ever again. will i ever talk on the phone or smile the same way? will my friends still be there for me, will they care when im out, who will stick by me?
it takes times like these to notice the blood splattered on the white walls. it takes instances where you're in serious shit to know, the only people that will stand by you through thick and thin would be your family. i have never ever appreciated my mother enough and i never will be able too. i daresay my ma has done way much more than any mother would have and i just hope her life wont be so screwed up anymore. i love you ma and i mean it. thank you for every single itty bitty little bit of joy you've brought to me. you were always there for me, i never knew.
i just wish so badly that time would turn make to the year 2003 on january the 1st. i would make amends from there. if i had a choice, i would go back and never smoke, drink or get involved with any of that shit. like i said, it takes shit to drop from the sky to make you realise where you're headed. if i was reading this about a day earlier, i would immediatley close the browser window and think to myself. 'what a fuckhead'. if this is what a 'fuckhead' is, im gonna be this way for a long time more to come.
DECISIONS ARE THE WORST THINGS TO FACE SOMETIMES.
addicted to a computer game.
my past sentiments regarding DotA were completly CRAP. DotA is one of the most competitive and adrenaline rushing games. my ma must be thinking im nuts now, shouting at a computer. heh. its damn fun la. it can be summed up in three letters, FUN.
sorry blog! ive been talking about about DotA so much these past few days. and i just said sorry to my blog. i must really be going cranky.
removed an earlier post regarding an issue which has stirred up hell within me. too much 'publicity' or rather unwanted attention. i will only tell those people whom i really think should really know what happened about what happened. to put it short, ALCOHOL + DEPRESSED NYMPHOMANIACAL GENDER ABUSIVE BITCH = a nice big fat pillar of angst that will not break down and hell to pay for her.
OWNAGE!
title of this post is
OWNAGE!cut my hair too , theres an awful rash there now. dont know why either. did quite alot of physics today w subra at the libary. there was this SUPER HOT chick there. really superbly hot , sexy and totally OOOH-LA-LA. she's about the HOTTEST malay chick ive ever seen. she had really good figure and i think she was tryna turn me on. hehe she kept bending down and shit. oh well , my imagination maybe. after the torturous cramming in the libary , we went to eat and i ate mutton chop! damn shiok , damn damn shiok. off to pavilion we went and for those non-DotA players to put it simply it was great. for the DotA players it was 'OWNAGE!' i ended the game w aegis , butterfly , burize , p treads , hyperstone and .. cant remember but anyway not bad right? 14kills too , on par with subra. hehe now thats an achievement.
homework madness.
its 9.40 now. just finished watching independence day. sucha a feel good show , heh. do you think its possible for an alien invasion to take place? i think this question will definitley draw alot of different views so tag me on what you think!
personally , i think it is possible. as if it is , i hope we have heroes like the geeky dude , will smith and the kamikaze fighter pilot who saved the world otherwise we are really screwed. they would have their stun guns and flesh burning laser and we would have our special SAR-21 or smtg like that(the one created by spefically for our defence force). what would you do? where can you hide? i know weiting would say smtg like this 'hmmm woodlands? eh oops.' i would say , lets all go out and fuck 'em all. FUCK 'EM ALL! so what if you die? you die with your valor and dignity intact. you die fighting , aint that more honourable then being found under your bed and slowly burnt to a KFC crisp with their laser guns? hmm i must have been a knight in my past life about 20 generations ago.
been listening to alot alot alot of scremo heavy metal recently. bands like dry kill logic , avenged sevenfold and so on. there were a few songs i liked from dry kill logic but whereas i believe all the hype avenged sevenfold has created is purely spoilt milk. sure , they have good guitar players but a fucking lousy vocalist. okay, i believe all bands who do screamo metal songs with the exception of Finch and Pantera suck. tell me a band who does and the vocalist actually sounds like he's really bring a point with his vocals across instead of just creating a really fucked up and supposedly 'satanic' or dark sound. tell me a band like that and i'll really listen to them. and i'll let you listen to how heavy metal should really be sounding like , early Metallica stage or maybe even Psycho Motel. not some screaming idiot whining about how his girlfriend dumped him in nearly every single song! fucking hell, the witchlist will NEVER disrespect heavy metal this way.
unity of agression , this 13th of june. anybody going? let me know. i really wanna go but reuben wont go. cmon let me know if anybody's going.
dota bliss + physics craze.
i really like to use the bone fletcher. REALLY. think its kinda like me , character and style wise. like i would go the extra mile if my reward is guranteed. kinda like that la.
i have decided to finish at least 2physics papers today! my mind in set , my pen is ready but body is too lazy. help help! blog ltr or smtg.
OWNAGE!
Am, F, C, Em.
today has been DotA , DotA and hours and hours more spent on DotA. it keeps my mind off certain problems , really. like some bitch from another country(no names specified, spore really cant fight a war.) its 5.05 am now and im blogging mainly because theres no one playing DotA at the moment. oh what do you expect not everybody stays up till the wee hours of the day to play computer games. my booze belly is coming out now. ahhh , time to get in shape. hmmmm. nothing really interesting to blog about other than the my daily occurences which has been DotA all day long. subra is really good at it anyway and i just wanna stop being the lousiest. hahah. mom is freaking me out when she says she sees two eyes glaring from my master of puppets poster. really freaking me out. i have the mad craving for prata , really crispy prata. surprisingly i havent drunk alcohol for about 5days alr and i can say im holding out really well. oh guess whats my DotA name. Alcoholica. heh. took it from the metallica smirnoff advert. so many things bothering me but i just shoot them all down with DotA. SHEESH , BIG TIME.
a pint of sorrow and regret. 40% hell.it seemed like forever but yet like noon.it felt so false but yet so beautiful.hurting deep within , the bottle of sorrow cannot be finished.why must my life be like this , to the skies i raise my fist.i don't understand what you're doing with me.im too agonised , too blind to see.nothing can comprehend the trust i still have in you.nothing can replace the dependence that still bleeds so blue.i see them laughing , accusing and mocking me with their fingers.lord , the dark lonesome cold. oh how it tinges.is this the way i must be? is there a mystery prize of women and riches?my feet trod on uncertain ground as i feel the humiliating barages.the ground shakes , it feels like it going to give way.where is the support? the rescue rope frayed.im flying , floating and see them staring down at me from the pitone last moment , i feel faster and deeper on the clock's last tick.the sky is orange , buring bright ablaze. the figurine moutains burn in decay.the ground burns bright amber as i hear people around me say.it was all foretold , we were all warned.there is no rose without a thorn.bulls on their feet armed to the neck. in my face one shouted orders as he spat.this is the end , bite on the bullet and bite down hard.the time for payback has come. don't look so stunned.this must be a dream , an awful nightmare. this cannot be happening , it is not real.what have i done , oh what have i done.what have i dont , why oh why have i done all that.
whor'ified.
you make me out to be the whore , bitch? i agreed i had some part to play. i apologised and i meant it but i take it all back now. you started whatever fuck we did and now i am in the wrong right? you go crying out to everybody and try to fuck me up. you fucking slut of a pastor's daughter. i will not go down in your shame. middle finger in your face , whore.
a shot of bliss in the head and the DotA episodes.
ive got another addiction on my long list added just a couple of days ago. it started while i was just bumming at home. really BUMMING. sleep , eat , smoke , tv , read and drink away. in the midst of all the boredom, i installed warcraft. i played and played for nearly the entire day. i remember installing the game after lunch which was aprox. 2pm and i remember the computer hanging at 11pm. so i guess i was slaying orcs with prince arthas for around 9hours? hell , thats alot of time. then recently i downloaded the lastest patch and all that and got my hands on DotA. hell , its damn fun la. i kinda like those heroes that attack from a distance. damn cool. then this morning , subra came over to try battle.net out. and now i see a whole lot of time meant for studying and doing the tys being spent on warcraft. all the determination to do well has gone into playing the computer now.
watched monster in-law that day. kinda funny and all. a good show to watch with that special someone you're intersted in. yea, sending su ann off was fun. studied at coffee bean for like an hour and chatted the rest of the time away. started my first lesson of mrs ho's tuition and all. learnt so much about alkanes , alkenes and homolugus grouping and organic chemistry. was seriously brain dead after the tuition.
OWNAGE!i see you smile and it warms up inside. i mumble and say weird things at times.it feels like heaven and the edge of a cliff.the peace and serenity could change with a hiss.i doubt you would ever understand the crushing anxiety.i doubt you can ever comprehend the heart within me.filled with a cocktail of hope and defeat.weighing down the love my heart seeked.broken once again , the tale is never new.just different leads , this time it was you.
