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Life's been a bore. Work, sleep, stone, drink, smoke and repeat after Work. While working today, got a call from Clearedge Productions to work as a logger for a day! Excited man, my first professional job application from a productions company. Aha, might not seem much but to me it feels awesome.
Been thinking alot recently, about how I've lost great friends like Wei Ting and Gabriel. How lucky I've been to have such a great girl like Gabrielle. How much I regret not showering my love on my mom while she was still in Singapore and regretful stuff lah basically. Been playing alot on my acoustic, alot of emo riffs and lyrics written. Heh, emofucks!
My Lamb Of God hoodie/sweater comes in this week, if all goes to plan lah. The excitement is building up like a dam broken loose.
Oh, it's Vivien's birthday today. Happy Birthday!
Was Maniam's birthday this week too, spent the wee hours bumming around with him and Leslie. Got him a goldmine from NYDC too! Ahh, great times we had in secondary school man. Miss all my good buddies.
Oh, the Tower Of Bishops have officially called it quits. Don't wanna talk about it. Thank god I still have my other bands to focus on, musically.
Metal Wars 1 was great! As a gig, pretty good turnout and crowd man. Can't wait for no2 where Rudra and War Ensemble performs. Can't help but compare with War Ensemble's vocalist lah, Randall Blythe all the way!
I'm afraid to admit that I need you more and more each day, lots of love.
Missing
All my life, I've had so many people and relationships that I've taken for granted. The only one that I never bothered the most about turned out to be the most important and impacting person on my life. Goodbye, off you fly to greater heights and greener grass. Love you many many.
Working my arse off man. No highlights of working besides the cute chicks. Very confusing, I don't know what kinda girls I like. There was 4 diabetic eye candy chicks today during dinner hour. One was some super sporty girl who had this super super super great smile, one was this really model looking high class nose in the air but damn hot type, one more was this scgs girl that really likes cheese and really had style, another was this girl in this awesomely body complimenting skirt. I kept serving their tables, water lah, dessert lah. Ahah, the high points about waitering. Somehow I kinda like the sporty chick more, great smile man.
Jammed last Saturday with Cardinal Sins, HuiMin left the band. Aha, can't cope with her studies. Heh! Hopefully the Lamb Of God cover band can jam this week. Laid To Rest and Ruin.
Got interview tomorrow at 2.30 for TP's Moving Images. Scared like fuck man. Portfolio? Aha, WHAT PORTFOLIO MAN! Die die die.
Weed, booze and lots of making out.
GET SICK!
Been madly in love with Slipknot's Duality man. Push my fingers into my eyes!
Had a major fucking long discussion with Dwayne, Leslie and Zheng Long and religion. Like fucking long, had a few irritating bystanders. A group of mats and an old man. After about 3 hours of debating, we conclude that one is right to all one wants to believe.
Jam this Sat, can I still do it? Ahah, METAL WARS on SUNDAY!
Met up with the Jana Cova guitarist, super nice dude man. Like Rui said, on the outside damn nice and shy but once inside the studio. HOHO! Ripping the entire place apart. He also said something very interesting. On how Christian bands are the best customers, they won't play aggressive so he won't have to worry about spoilt guitars and snares. Aha, and he won't let me on the drums lah!
Come on, you know what you are. Stop.
BM sia
I have come to a conclusion that alcohol makes me very talkative. Aha!
Predicament
I'm in a predicament. One's a longtime friend whom have shared many romances with me, the other's a relatively new chick. Oh god, why do I always put myself in such situations. Need loadsa time to think think think.
Lamb Of God cover band's about set up. Taking the guitarists from Jana Cova, Rizwan(Cardinal Sins), myself on vocals and that little boy called Matthew on drums. Very excited to get the band up and going. And I think again, another band?! I must be high or something.
Ordering a Lamb Of God hoodie from Clairvoyant. 140 fucking dollars. I can only say 'Pricey'.
I think I wanna form an emo band! Aha, been writing songs frequently again and all I can think about is a new beginning, a new dawn, a new sunrise that comes crashing down to a blistering halt. Emo right? Can't write songs about anti-christ issues no more. Just can't dig in and pull that Black Metal aspect of me anymore. Been writing alot of songs about destruction, our human destruction.
My Nano and Neeon both conked out. Sucks 'cos I listen to music all the time. Now on the mrt I just look at people and analyse them. Bit by bit, shoe by shoe, shirt by shirt. Trying to guess what their real occupation is. I think I saw an actual prostitute the other day. Details, I shan't delve into.
Working at NYDC again, no chef assistant post or what. Chicks, plenty plenty. Had a couple of very refreshing incidents in just 2 days. There's also this major fag called Benjamin that I really want to hit. Just waiting for something to start. I'm gonna drag his skinny ass out and beat the hell out of his sarcastic whimpy ass.
My pain is all I know, all I can believe in.
Inked, pierce.
Greetings all. Back from my Malaysia trip and kinda bummed out. I estimate that about 60% of the country's population die from smoking related causes. With the prices of the ciggarettes there, the average smoker will die at the age of about 50. Just $3.50 for a hard pack, and $1.50 for the cute small ones. Jolly jolly Malaysians.
Went to Rush last night with Dwayne. Met up with his friends over there. Aiyah, dancing's not my thing man. Alot of ahlians anyway, had a little scary incident but nothing worth mentioning.
It's amazing how a heavilly inked or pierced person can be subjected to different forms of treatment within our seemingly 'impartial' society. Does the piercing or tattoo speak solely for the person? It is beyond my comprehension what kinda of human beings we are, our supposed just human rights and all that. We humans are shallow, unthinking and selfish creatures. We live solely for the continuity of our kind, our family, our race, our religion. We are not one, for who will embrace their enemies with love? We are shitty, little, hobbit like people that deserve no less than a complete extermination.
God bless us all.
