HUNGOVER
Another mad drinking session at Vintage. I think I hit 10mugs this week man. Anyway, last night is just a blur. I remember this really cute friend of HuiMin who's attached(BUMMER!), lying on the toilet floor only to have Wai Lun and Mike help me up. I remember doing stupid and embarassing stuff. CNY dinner today!
May one and all have a prosperous and festive lunar new year! Gong Hei Fat Chuoi!
Always on my mind, always on my mind, you're dancing to my song, always on my mind.
Smash smash, bash bash, slap kick punch.
BORING DAY.
Woke up, met Cherilyn to pass her some stuff for the SIP people(Chih Chong put my card on his board! WOOAH!), Went to Tampines(ZIZHONG PANGSEH! THANK GOD FOR AGNES!), update passport, home, sleep, badminton with dad, Diablo all the way.
Life w/o work sucks. Please VideoEzy(Loyang Pt) HIRE ME!
INKED!
It's been a long long time since the last update man. Doubt anybody actually reads my blog though. Yea, I got my tattoo done up. It's a total of 3 different paintings by Luis Royo(Who is totally kickass!). The Demon Face on the area just under my kneecap, a warscene all around the lower calve and a cross on the back of my calve. I'm not even hlafway through yet and I'm loving every single dillating scabbed fraction of my tattoo. Painful, yes. But it feels so good, in a morbid sense.
Jammed yesterday with Cardinal Sins at Beat Merchants. My throat was during pretty good the first hour then in the second things started to hurt more and more. Not really recovered from the hoarse-ness.
Tomorrow's my last day with SIP! Man, it's been great. Up's and down's all the way(Somehow I'm reminded of that Ronan Keating song). I think today was the best shoot day ever, fun like hell. Totally playing half the time. Guess I'm really fortunate to have such a great working enviroment eh? Double Chin 2 is all done up, guess Farah is heading for drinks tonight! Aha, happening.
Oh man, it's like a major page in my holidays has just been turned, just like that! My results will come out in just a matter of weeks and I'll lead the schooling life again!
Somehow one smile from you is never enough.
THIS IS THE ART OF RUIN!
I WILL SHOW YOU ALL THAT I HAVE MASTERED. FEAR, PAIN, HATRED, POWER! THIS IS THE ART OF RUIN!Hello all! Spent the day sleeping and watching dvds. Watched 40 year old virgin again. Mad comedy and like Sam says. It's an epic, the first comedy that actually can be so draggy and yet so cheeky and tasty. Still sick as hell, just puked dinner out in the toilet about 10 minutes ago. God damn, this sucks! Wonder how all those bullimics can take it, the smell of puke is seriously choking me. The diarrhoea is back, SOMEBODY SAVE ME!(Plays the Remy Zero number)
Jam on the 21st confirmed. Gonna jam 'Ruin', I have to hit this on the right spot man. The part when the screech hits in during the intro is making me strain and plus stamina wise, it's a killer. After all my insistence on jamming this number, if I don't hit it off like what the hell man. Confidence boy, confidence. I'm so sure I won't be able to tahan and I will definitely headbang like a possesed kid when the song plays. Hope I remember I have to growl away.
FINALLY! My first Lamb Of God cover. This is like a dream come true man.
Let us entertain you.
Okay, not so emo now. Gabrielle who? :)
Took a day off yesterday and today. Just gotta recover from this diarrhoea and vomitting bout, was getting really bad. I seem to have recovered from it already, it seems to I re-emphasize. Work sucks when I'm just bumming in the office, seriously I'd rather be out on set. Sweating in the blistering sun or shivering in the cold, it's just more interesting. I don't know what I'm really supposed to be learning at the office? Sure, I'm not bumming all the day but on set I get to learn so much. Been handed this holy-hell-shit-fuck-dick assignment. Find out all about mobile gaming, its major players blah blah. Fuck man! Why am I doing that? Seriously, how would learning about SK Telecomms in Korea benefit me in anyway? And she called the interns(Cherilyn & Me) a bunch of SLACKERS! Hoho! When there is nothing to do what do you really expect me to do? Put on a pretty apron and cap and dust the place? And besides, office time I learn shit man. I barely learn anything besides nicely rearranging your messy cupboard and running errands to tv12. Oh and that If I'm not informed to come in the day before, it's my fault. I should ask when you when is it next that I can get to SERVE you.
I'm sick of you, the job, the fucking internship pay, the 'maid' treatment!
Feb 8th. Come soon man, or I will fly up and do that Superman thing where he accelerated time. Damn, really wanna get my tattoo done soon man. But I'd better not rush it since it's a lifetime thing. Hope they can come up with a design I fall in love with at first sight.
Swords drawn, to battle we ride!
Best I Ever Had
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Vertical Horizon - Best I Ever HadSo you sailed away into a grey sky morningNow I'm here to stay, love can be so boringNothing's quite the same now, I just say your name now.But it's not so bad, you're only the best I ever hadYou don't want me back, you're just the best I ever had.So you stole my world, Now I'm just a phony.Remembering the girl, leaves me down and lonely.Send it in a letter, make yourself feel better.But it's not so bad, you're just the best I ever had.You don't need me back, you're just the best I ever had.And it may take some time toPatch me up insideBut I can't take it so I Run away and hideAnd I may find in time thatYou were always rightYou're always right
Sing, Sing for Satan!
Met up with Mom for lunch at Pariss or something like that. The manager there was seriously hyped up man, or smoking weed at the back of the kitchen. So damn cheerful, it's actually really hard to be like him. Ate the hugest oyster I've ever eaten, thank god for the tabasco or I would have puked. It was about the size of my palm and had an intense sea smell.
Met up with Leslie and Subra after that to go shop shop. Bought the As The Palaces Burn, Lamb Of God tee! HOLY HELL! Now that was the major highlight of the day man! $39 bucks but hell it's Lamb Of God! And got another Bounty Hunter tee which says 'Sing, Sing for Satan!'. Not that I'm satanic or what but just that the design is dope(quote: Agnes) man.
Superbly sick. Flu, blocked nose, cough, vomitting, diarrhoea. 6 hit combo(quote:Agnes).
Was just talking with Subra on the way back, what was the most treasured memory of SHSS. His was all his wild pranks during BB camps etc. Was actually tryna think of what mine was on the stinking long bus ride home. I just mine would be.. Eating at $1 Chicken Rice, Playing soccer with TCP at TCP, Smoking up blocks, Basketball at 840, Stealing bikes and getting punched after, Volleyball trainings, Hating Volleyball teachers, drinking cheap heavy liquor, Buying fags from that shop opp 827, getting scared shitless when cops came. An eventful chapter of my life comes to a close.
Oh man, gotta eat the lor mee and chicken rice one last time before I leave!
Yes, Miss You-Love-Me but I don't? Oh is that so? Well fuck off then.
Now You've Got Something To Die For
NOW YOU'VE GOT SOMETHING TO DIE FORBeen having mad bouts of diarrhoea and vomitting recently. Man, totally sucks cos when I work I'm also walking and moving about. There's always that constant fear that a little pants accident might happen. Shoot was cut short today, due to the rainy weather. Ken(Zero in DC2)'s mom just passed away. That totally sucks man. Can't imagine if that happened to me. He seems pretty all right though, guess it's all part and parcel of life eh? He's just one of the nicest dudes on the set and just simply so down to earth and not mentioning what a fantastic actor he is. Think Jim Carrey calibre.
I think Christianity is just perfect for the average human. If something good happens to the Christian, it's a blessing from God. If something bad happens, it's a trial set by his Holiness. No offence to all the Christians out there but if there's a reason for everything that happens, whats the point in living in the first place! I'm afraid I don't share your belief, well at least not anymore. I'm sorry I'd rather question than eat all that is on my plate.
George's tonight? Shit lah, I know I should be catching up with my sleep at home but it's a public holiday tomorrow! Gotta get drunk, get laid or do something. Anything but nothing. Was thinking of a two piece jam with Matthew, doubt it now. I'm so stinking tired I could really just drop dead any moment.
Mom's leaving for the Down Under in 4 weeks! I just know I'm gonna be so broken but I guess I like ignoring things till they hit me. Well, this way I get to feel the full impact of the emotion huh?
I have denied, this life it's worth. I will not be the victim. Sickness to you my master, here's to getting worst. Hope it kills you faster, show me how it hurts.Our Father we forsake you.
Starring into empty bottles.
Spent the waking hours of the morning in some playground today. Wah lao, high lah yesterday. The surprising thing is that I actually became a 'Guardian' yesterday. Took care of Julian and Anil. Seriously man, I shall redefine the rules.
It's either FREE FLOW or NO FLOW!
You're never high enough, never rich enough, never happy enough, never good enough. Till you're loved.
Weather's screwed up. Raining one minute and killer heat waves the next. Shoot got delayed quite a bit today because of the horrible sudden weather changes.
Oh man, jamming tomorrow with the Nightwish cover band. Haven't learnt the songs!
Oh baby, just smile.
The Beloved and The Despised.
Caliban's vocalist is seriously inspiring me big time. Super duper crazed intenisity in his vocals man! I'm telling you when's he about 40 and has done about 10 years of his vocals he won't be able to speak anymore. Ahah,
choi! -Touches some wood.
Prop searching again. From Bras Basah Complex to North Bridge Rd to Rochor Centre to OG to Bugis Junction. NO COSTUME THAT WILL MAKE PEOPLE LOOK MUSCULAR! And no, it's not for me. For the show lah. Oh speaking about the show, I'm appearing on national television as a punk! A real punkish looking guy, stupid hairdresser! I just got on camera shoot at two kids, wave my finger and them and stroll away. Ahah, my twenty seconds of fame. Not even a minute, damn! Was fun doing it though. "Eh you two! What do you think you're doing? If I see you again I'll call the police!" Catch it this Sunday, 930 am on Kids Central, it's the show Double Chin 2.
Wah, free advertising for the show! Heh, I do think every little boy and girl should watch it though. It would inculcate the c0ncerned neighbour values that is dearly missed by me. My neighbours stare at me in a certain manner every time I see them, except for the MILF from the 8th floor lah. Aha, whoopsie. It's true lah, only at Ubi and at Ma's old Tampines flat did I ever have nice neighbours. Friendly people, the old man at the Tampines flat even let me bum ciggs off him! Now, that's friendly!
Wonder if Singaporean authorities will ban Black Metal just like how our Malaysian neighbours did. It's music man! If you want to control music, you might as well control religion! It's one of those things we libertised people enjoy, we get to choose it! Stinking control freaks. Read something like this on
www.bmezine.com during their post shut down articles.
'The more corrupt the state, the more laws they make."
What is your life?
How about a chocolate dust sprinkle?
I got to work on time today, +1 man. Spent the entire afternoon searching for a cheap costume with padding for fake muscles. From Forum to Chinatown, to Bras Basah for A3 sized paper which I got got the wrong colour for. I am shagged, up down left right centre. Propping is NO EASY JOB. People doing propping should have vehicles, seriously. Taking the train today was effing irritating, people brushing their hands past my butt TWICE and the bloody trains are packed like sardines man.
Met a whole lot of Ugly Singaporeans today. Seriously, would you dash in front of someone to get an empty seat? Would you stare at someone for an entire 5 minutes if they had accidentally bumped into you 'cos the train jerked? Would you complain and give dirty looks if someone could not move and squeeze any further into the train? Like what the hell man. Here's the worst one, a couple of multi-coloured hair dyed ah bengs were stretching their legs, maxed out along the train's err flooring? An old lady nearly tripped over their feet and nonchantly they simply looked away. I felt like grabbing the delinquent's neck and shouting some very unpleasant words into his face. Before I could have contemplated a course of action, this very very big and muscular dude goes to them and bends down to the guy's face and tells him something very quietly.
Here's what I think happened,
Big Dude: Look punk, you have two options. Option A, move your skinny twig like legs in and sit properly. Option B, remain how're you seated and I will snap those twigs of yours in a second. Then I will start on your little arms and then your puny brain capacitating structure.
Ah Beng: Huh? Le gong sim? Uh, sit prol-ber-lee har? Paiseh paiseh. Okay okay, yes zir.
Ah Beng proceeds to pee in his pants so badly, a mini river of pee up to ankle length builds up and develops into a minor flooding of the train. Passengers seated immediatley jump up on the seats and hang out for dear life and clean shoes. Standing passengers hop on immediatley onto seats, some unlucky ones lose their balance and fall into the Huang He or Yellow River. A mother cradles their newborn infant in their bosom in an attempt to shield the child from the oncoming onslaught of filthy water. Big Muscular Dude, the tireless hero takes a giant leap toward the standed mother and child. In a mili-second. Big Muscular Dude hops back to the Ah Bengs who have stood on their seats as well with mother and child in hand. He grabs the Ah Bengs and shove them in the water and then turn around and with a white as heaven smile says 'You will be safe here.' Mother thanks the Superhero endlessly and the onlooking audience applaud.
Unaware to the little child who had just walked her first step, our superhero turns around in a swift motion. His bulky frame knocking the infant into the water. Time passes so slow, BMD reaches out his arms but they being too huge are too slow, the child falls backward in a suicide jump position, arms outstretched. Seconds pass, the crowd gasp in anticipation, the mother screams.
'Splissh!' The little child falls into the urine.
BMD turns from hero to Zero(No pun intended to DC2 viewers,cast etc). Police arrive on the scene, BMD is seen leaving Tanjong Pagar Mrt Station in multiple handcuffs. He is charged with disturbance of the peace, public disarray, endangerment of the public and is sent on Corrective Work Order to clean the already flooded Tanjong Pagar Mrt Station. He will be hung shortly on the 32nd Of Febuary.
THIS IS JUST A MAKE UP STORY. DO NOT INFORM THE POLICE OR ANY RELEVANT AUTHORITIES.Isn't that our society for you?
Do a million good deeds and Santa will kiss you. One wrong step and his Reindeers and Elves piss on you. Damn, it sucks to be BMD.
p.s Confusion: Why are humans so disgusting! :P Hope school was good for you anyway.
Cherries on the side?
Bloodshoteye and Vornagar. GOOD STUFF MAN!
Anyway, I awoke all of a sudden this morning at about a quarter past three. Sudden realization hit me that I was not supposed to be awake since it's stinking three in the morning. Confusion wreaked its havoc on my mind as I wrestled the blanket off me. All of a sudden, it hit me. I woke up because I had to pee.
Aha, I think all the booze has made me a tad dumber than I already am man. Seriously, how is it possible that it would take a person close to 5 minutes to realise that their brain got them up to pee. Fascinating ain't it? No, not my dumb-bilty but how the brain works.
Now, you know why they call it the most powerful 'computer' on the face of our planet. If by evolution we have been cultivated and transformed into such intelligent beings armed with such tools that yield so much potential within, how is it that we behave like the primitive man in so many ways? Territorial conquests, fights for possesion over every and any damn thing we have in our sights. Perhaps we've just added a couple of neat twists here and there like, 'Oh we're doing it to avenge the deaths of our innocent' or 'In the name of democracy, we wage war'.
Last I heard, we were known as Intelligent Beings. Not that sure now.
Oh do you know there's actually a term in warfare called the Victory Disease? Ahah, chanced upon it on Wikipedia(By far my favourite-est website ever). It's when a enemy is tricked into believing that he has won and then at his weakest, during his/her celebratory moments. They are charged upon. Cool eh!
Anyway, off to pee at long last and get some water down. Dehydrated man.
She will be loved.
HELL
Do I use the F word too much? Whoopsie. Super shagged after today. Work was super slack. I mean what would you be expected to do besides to be really obedient when you come at 4 and it ends around 6? Heh, overslept.
Was reading our local blogging celebrity's blog just now, Xiaxue's. Her posts on Bangla's getting too into the festive occasion were simply wordishly captivating man!
I know I've always dissed people who blog about their daily routines and stuff( Ver, you shut up okay. :P) but seriously there's no mood for anything meaningful anymore when you're deadbeat tired. So tired that you won't even pet your dog of 12 years anymore. To me, that's bad. Maybe next time lah.
Props shopping tomorrow. Finally, something intersting. :)
For moments seem bleak and the pits too empty, the flowers die young and the people too happy.Every colour has turned a grey, every moment I heard myself say. It's over.Mistakes, mistakes, mistakes. I know there is nothing no one can give you what I gave to you and nobody can love me the way you did.
The dark overcast clouds clear for the Sun
Yesterday's jam was great! The band's playing tightness certainly has well.. Tightened. Despite missing out on lead guitars, things weren't shabby at all. It's different though but we made it through. The Nightwish cover band's one was good too. Their vocalist, Jasmine is bloody awesome. She has such a pure and powerful voice man. Seriously, way UP there good. Hope 'I Wish I Had An Angel' was okay though. Think the Mike dude making fun of me, ahh what the fuck.
Spent the night with the 'Club 333' people, laughing my ass off man. Bloody funny people. I honestly think the Hakim guy can go do stand up comedy man. Nice people.
Life as it seems is not the same anymore. No school, feels kinda strange actually. Like I'm missing out on something that's right infront of my eyes but I just can't see it at all. Strange description but it just feels that way.
Well, everybody's on their way to school and I guess I should be on my way to the office. Ughhh..
Entwined By Vengeance
I'm becoming a Jack Johnson addict! It's screwed up because people are calling me gay! Oh who cares, I don't care what you suckers think! I will listen to everything and anything I like.
I remember this day about a year ago, where I would be at my WW3 desk(very messy and lyrics written all over the table) rushing the algebra and physics assignments before school started. Ah, it seems totally unreal that I'm no longer a secondary school student anymore. Like I've grown, or like I'm being forced to grow up. Oh well, I can't be a kid forever but maybe just a little while more?
Jamming tomorrow, can I perform? HOHO! Seriously hope so, it's weird getting a guy to cover female vocals but I hope I can do it well man.
When is Tower Of Bishops gonna record! We're not progressing! Too many issues.
And the kid actors on Double Chin 2 and fantastic! Very good!
Hi Charmaine. :)
01.01.06
So this is the big 06 eh? Feels the same though. Spent the passing hours of 2005 at mom's, all party plans ruined thanks to the wonderful wet climate. Dinner was great, felt nice to be around Ma and Po again. Watched movies till 6 in the morning and left for home. We actually watched Lamb Of God's Kiladelphia together and Ma actually did try to do the vocals for 'Now You've Got Something To Die For'. AH! That's a major shocker and hell, it was freaking me out man.
So what has 05 done for you? Well, for me..
The stinking 'O' Levels are finally over! Trust me when I say that that's a major relief.
Our mini street soccer club, definitely a highlight in my secondary school life. TCP, a major outlet for all the stress and shit. To Reuben, Isaac, Subra, Leslie, Daniel: Thanks bros! Kick ball soon? Happy NY!
Defintely have grown closer to my Dad. Wasn't my favourite man in the past but I guess it's about time to bury the hatchet? I think I'm right on this one.
It's taken me 2 years to really understand that sometimes the things that seem right are actually wrong. Major apologies to all the people I've hurt in one way or another, friends, old church people. You guys will know who I'm referring to.
Gabriel Khoo Eng Huat, Marcus Wong, Benjamin Wang: Guys, thanks for always being there for me. Anytime of year, any single effing day. Thanks always, and may our friendship remain strong despite the distance and the complicating issues that constantly plague us. Our memories spent as brothers will never be forgotten or any more preciously cherished than by me in my heart. Have a great year ahead.
To all the old Ubi friends: I'll come down to slack sometime man. Sorry for leaving so suddenly, thanks for all the memories. Happy NY!
To 4D people: Thank you so effing much for putting up with me. I'm hella irritating I know and I thank you all for tahan-ing all my nonsense. Remember our motto fuckers!
To HuiMin, Rizwan and all the others in the AE band and Agnes blah of the NW band plus Eric: Great getting to know you guys man. Fun times at Vintage will always be remembered. KNNBCCB Subway Apples! Remember if you're walking out of Murphy's make sure there's no mad fucker standing outside the door waiting to kick it! Cheers all!
Mad year it has been. All the mad shit I've done this year, I will always remember. Just like I remember all the special people who've played a major part in my life around this time of year. Charmaine Chan, Christina, Aaron Ng, Jamie Pang, Jon Wang, Matthew, Linus, Lester and all the beautiful people. Thanks!
Thank you everybody for a fab 05!
